And today, my heart is broken..

Well, this past few days, I'm in a too emotional state. It was my first time that I was cheated on by my boyfriend, and my friend. It really hurts so much, to the point that I am getting bitter everyday. But I said to myself I shouldn't be. My mom was right, why spend time thinking and loving a person that is no worth!

Everyday I always think of the reasons why I deserved this? I love him very much, as in very much! I gave up many things, sacrifice every little things, but this is what I get? Bullshit. Why do people tend to be like this? Wala silang utang na loob.

For my friend, this the most part that I was hurt. She made me feel that we are okay. We are friends again after all, then this what happened. I'm shocked, no clue at all. I don't know how will I feel about her. I was really hurt. I don't know what will I say to her. I realized that this point of time, I'm closing my doors for us. Maybe, I can forgive her, but be friends again, it is impossible.

Well, this is it. I realized many things. First, if you love someone, don't give it all. Magtira ka para sa sarili mo. Second, a playboy will always be a playboy, its a miracle if he will change for you. Third, wag kang magpakatanga kung alam mo nang may mali. Being a martyr is not a solution, makakasira lang ng dignidad mo yun! Fourth, It is alright to give a second chance, but a third chance is a no. And last, once is enough, hindi pwedeng paulit ulit nalang ang kasalanan. Once the trust is gone, you should let go..

Well he is the one. I guess this is the last time I will say, I love you. Thanks for the time you made me feel that I am special. Goodbye.